The End....
The first time I felt like this was when I finished my National service in Norway. Although it was nice to have completed, it was also sad. And I learnt the first lesson of ends there. You promise to keep in touch and maybe come for a visit. Truth is: you probably won't. The reason is that once you "stop" one life and go on with your next, you can only deal with one of them. You have other friends, a job, maybe education. I have two very good friends from my time up North. I have a chat with them once in a while, which is not bad seven years later.
The second time was when I left Kosovo. Through 18 months we worked closely together, and in the evenings we sat on top of an APC (Armoured Personnel Carrier), smoked a cigar and had a chat while listening to crazy dogs and the random fire of an AK-47. Nice!
The third time was when I left work to start to study. I didn't really think much about it at the time, but I know now that it was a great place to be with great people, and isn't it always like that? You don't know how much you like something until it's gone...
The fourth time was when I left Haugesund to study together with Joakim in Bergen for a year. We were ten persons or so gathering in the cafeteria every day between lessons, chatting and laughing. None of us knew each other before we started studying, but almost all of us had the one thing in common that we had previous work experience. In days where a lot of "fresh" students really couldn't care less about their performance at school, that was refreshing as we all were really motivated for studying. But then Joakim and myself went to Bergen as the University College in Haugesund couldn't provide us with the topics we wanted. Already having a friend in Joakim, the end of the Haugesund study adventure wasn't that tough.
Bergen was fantastic, nothing less. The social life on Gyldenpris where I lived was brilliant, and the city was also very nice. One of my friends there was one of the friends I keep in touch with from the national service. It really sucked to leave them all, as I had a great year. That was the fifth time.
The sixth time is now. I'm not there yet as I leave on Monday, but the end of the semester was yesterday, completed with a big party. It was also the final of the business plan competition, but we didn't win. I congratulate those who won and curse the "Board" for not choosing our project. I still think ours was the best one, but unfortunately I wasn't asked... When we asked of reasons, all we got was that our project was too risky. Sure. Knut pointed out that the Board didn't have the balls to accept our project, which was a popular remark...
While I write about all the "ends" in this post (a post which is growing by the minute), I have to say one thing. This time is different. The first reason is that for the first time in 5 years, I can concentrate on the present. I'm back where I started, and I can finally see my friends during weekdays as well as weekends.
The second and biggest reason is that I return to Elisabeth, and can finally be with her on a permanent basis. I really look forward to that! All the times that I have had "ends" I have left someone permanently. But all the times I have left Haugesund, Elisabeth and my friends and my family to study or work I have known that is has only been temporarily. I look forward to seeing you all again! The third reason that it is different this time is that I have a feeling I will meet a lot of my new friends professionally. Shipping isn't that big a business...